so. ...

so. i am leaving for
camp tomorrow. not that you can tell by the beginning but i'm
actually very excited!!!! however i am in sort of a nostalgic mood and
am just realizing how much more my friends mean to me this year.....not
that they didn't mean anything to me last year but i wasn't really
attached to them like i am now. I am going to miss everyone a
lot, and last year it was kind of like whatever. I kinda like
this because usually i get attached to someone before i have to say
goodbye for basically ever. Like my old coach I actually started
to like right before he left and moved to PA. And friends from
the gym I get really attached to and close with right before they go to
college. So this time I'm attached to people but I'm the one
leaving, which is a change. And i'm not leaving for good, i still
have 2 more years to enjoy with them, which is also good. Maybe
I'm finally learning. That would be a first.


On the same(ish) note, I'm very excited to see everyone from camp who i
haven't seen for the most part since last year!! i have my worries
about how this year is going to go, but at least i'm sure it will be
fun! I mean when is it not. kinda sucks that my favorite
place and people in the world I only get to see for two weeks.
But maybe that's why I like them so much? Probably. That's
cool though. It's someplace I know I will always find someone to
talk to at, and I know I'll never have to leave it, even after I
graduate, so that's some sort of security that I'm not loosing everyone
when I graduate I guess. Whatever. Enough of this. I
am going to go have a nice night at home before I leave. Maybe
write a poem or two who knows.